♥ Rece’s Piece ♥

I can’t even begin to tell you how ready I was for this long weekend. I am sooooo glad that I’m finally at a job where I can enjoy the luxury of a holiday. Being a nurse doesn’t usually allow that. I’ve been looking forward to this for a while!

I’m planning to go to the movies tonight, a BBQ tomorrow, a picnic and a BBQ on Saturday and probably just reeeelax on Sunday. Hopefully the weather will permit all of this to take place, but knowing NY weather, it won’t! LOL.

I haven’t gotten to spend some good QT with my boo in a minute since his cousin ended up in the hospital, but hopefully this weekend we can play catch-up.

Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy your weekend.

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“He who angers you controls you”

These were the words I lived by. It helped me keep my composure and just laugh things off. It kept me sane! Lately I’ve noticed that I’ve been getting way too upset about small things. I was getting really upset today because I felt like someone was trying to deceive me (and she is). The fury and rage were building up inside of me the more I thought about the situation or talked about it.

I began explaining it to my current supervisor and she calmed me down a lot. She brought it to my attention that people purposely do things to get a reaction from you. That hit home for me. This person was trying everything possible to get under my skin and she was getting exactly what she wanted to make her bitter heart smile.

It’s like I already knew everything my supervisor was telling me, but somehow over time these things left my mind. I’m taking it back to the peaceful person I once was.

This week is starting off much better than last week ended. I was absolutely miserable last week and probably determined to make everyone else miserable too. You know they say misery loves company. I was furious at work on Friday. I was at the edge and people just kept trying me. I was so out of character. At least I won’t be in that clinic anymore. My orientation there is done.

Finally today I’m at the clinic I’ll be working at and all was well. Hopefully I won’t get too bored and I’ll stay for a while. That’s the plan.

I had a dream the other night and there was a dark skinned guy in the dream. In the dream I couldn’t remember his name, but I remembered it started with a ‘J’. (My special someone’s name starts with a ‘J’, but it didn’t look like him) I told him not to tell me what it was because it was at the tip of my tongue. I knew it was the same as an artist name in my Ipod, but I woke up before I remembered his name. I remember being very attracted to him in the dream and he was attracted to me also. It was weird because I woke up feeling like this is someone I have to meet. Almost like there was a deeper meaning for us being acquainted with each other. Either I have a message for him or he has one for me.

Fast Fwd. So I went to the mall later that evening and a dark skinned guy who worked in the mall stopped me and we  had friendly conversation. He wasn’t like the typical flirtatious guys I run into. I left and went about my business, but I kept wondering if he was the ‘J’ guy from the dream. I never asked him his name and I sure wasn’t about to go back and ask him and risk looking like a psychopath or even lead him to believe I was interested. LOL. I’m still wondering if he was the ‘J’ guy from the dream though. The world may never know.

from beginning to end. Period.

Why can’t everything be good at the same time? When you finally get it together with the piece that’s struggling, something else falls apart.

I haven’t really paid much attention to my checking account or my other bills. In fact, I haven’t balances my checkbook in like 2 weeks.  I knew nothing was due yet, so I just carried on with life. That is really unlike me!

Today I finally decided to sit down and pay my bills for the month. OMG! I absolutely did NOT realize how much money I spent over the last month. I thought those statements were wrong! I was sitting here calculating… and recalculating everything to make sure their statement was right… and it was! Usually I don’t buy too many things for myself, but I guess I thought I was special this month because I splurged big time!

After assessing all the damage, I had no choice but to pay it all off. I hate finance charges, so I usually pay it off so I never have to see them. I don’t even know what percentage the finance charge is on my credit cards because the balance never sits around that long.

Needless to say, I won’t be buying anything new for a little while. Except for a pair of Crocs to wear to work. I never realized how comfortable they were until now. Wow!

~ That’s all she wrote ~

It was like a scene out of a movie!

I was on the phone with my special someone. It was a little after nine and he was on his way home from class. He stopped to buy food and we were chatting away as he made his stops. He was in the middle of telling me something, then all I hear is “Ohhh Shhhh………” then the phone hangs up.

I guess I’m a positive person because I didn’t think the worst had happened. I thought it was a bit strange at first. I waited a few seconds to see if he would call me right back, but those seconds were taking too long. I called him back and the phone rang about three times. Each ring seemed like an eternity. I was just beginning to panic. My heart was just beginning to beat out of my chest then…

He answered the phone. I ask him if he’s ok. He said that he was seconds away from smashing head first into a truck. A TRUCK!!! Apparently he bought a soda and it was about to fall or something so he leaned over to get the cup. The moment he leaned over happened to be when he was approaching a bend in the road. He said his car drifted out of his lane and was approaching oncoming traffic. He sounded pretty freaked out as he told me, but he was laughing. More of a nervous and shocked laugh. I didn’t really find anything amusing. Laughter and a playful nature is his default emotion to mask feeling uncomfortable, insecure, shocked, angry etc.

I dunno. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since then. I’m not ready to go to another funeral… and definitely not his. I just thank God that He was watching over him.

So after 85 million tries, I was finally able to login to my blog. Whew! I haven’t been gone that long, have I?

Moving right along. Today is my special someone’s birthday! His fam and friends met up at his house last night to celebrate. There was lots of food and 2 cakes, which he can’t eat. He’s allergic to eggs and just about every cake is made with eggs. I ended up staying over there soooo late, thanks to the Lakers game and just plain old having fun. I stayed there so late that I woke up 1.5 hrs late for work today! The only good thing was that I got to work only 30 minutes late.

This past weekend, I went to Florida to visit my grandparents. I hadn’t been to their house in about 14 yrs. They usually fly to NY to visit us. I didn’t even realize it was that long until I was booking my fight. It’s one of those situations where you keep saying you’re going to do something, but there’s is always a reason to postpone it. Finally I decided to just do it because there will always be a reason not to, or something holding me back.

It was nice seeing my grandparents. My grandmothers sisters also came to visit from different places and I hadn’t seen them in forever. We went to the “Warm Mineral Spring.” It was pretty interesting because it looked like dirty water and I wasn’t really interested in getting in it. They kept talking about how it had healing power and blah blah blah. I don’t really subscribe to that idea, but we did have fun soaking in the dirty water for a few hours. lol. It was a short, but sweet trip.

I’m so committed to home that I was ready to come back to NY after my 2 day mini-vacation. What can I say? I love it here!

Now I’m not the queen of table manners. I’m not even close, but lately when I’ve been going out to eat I see things that absolutely shock me. I just figured some things were known to be inappropriate at the table.

One thing that bothers me is smacking at the table. People really need to learn to chew with their mouth closed. That’s a very unattractive habit.

I have a friend who I’ve gone out to eat with on several occasions. Before I ever went out to eat with her, she made a comment about her boyfriend putting his fork in her plate to taste her food. She complained about how that was so rude of him blah blah blah. So we go out to eat one day and when I was just about done eating, she asked me why I didn’t eat the tomatoes in my salad. I told her I wasn’t really into tomatoes. Don’t you know she reached across the table to eat my tomatoes. Did she ask first? Nope!

On another occasion I went out with her an another friend and she did the same thing to our other friend. I’m pretty convinced she does that with everyone so how could she be upset that her boyfriend did it to her?

If you’re familiar with West Indians, when they eat meat, they chew the bone and spit out the pieces. The same friend does this at the dinner table in restaurants, in the cafeteria at lunch, in the back-room for break… anywhere! Who does this outside of their home? (Ok, I don’t do that period, but I know how West Indians get down).

So tonight I went out to dinner with yet another friend and she put her hand in her glass several times to dig the ice out of the bottom of the glass, then she dug the lime out. Who does that at this age?

Like I said… I’m not perfect, but these are basic table manners, or so I thought. People really need to get it together.

~ That’s all she wrote ~

I started my orientation for my new job. Everything has been absolute ca-razy with that place. It’s like everyone is moving in their own circles and no one is aware of what the other is doing. It’s very frustrating at times because you get different information from different people about the same thing. Which one do you believe? The commute is pure hell. It take a little over an hour to drive the 15 miles each way, to and from work. I’m usually all about convenience. All of my jobs have been no more that 20 minutes away and that includes any traffic there may be. This is out of the ordinary for me.

I kept praying before I got the job and even after I got the job, that if this is the position for me, that everything works out well. Trust and believe, I kept wondering if it really was. They’ve made everything difficult for me from day one. I kept telling myself that I would wait and see how the actual clinic is. Meanwhile, I’m praying that the commute and parking are the worst aspect of the job.

So today I finally make it over to the clinic. The building looks really plain from the outside and It’s in Brooklyn in the middle of a busy shopping area. Needless to say, I wasn’t expecting much, but when I walked inside, I was pleasantly surprised! The inside looks brand new and absolutely beauuutiful. The people there were so nice and friendly. The vibe was right!

I spent some time talking to the nurse in charge. We were telling a little about ourselves. She asked me if I was a Christian. Ok, I don’t really know who asks that kind of question in a job setting, but in any case, I told her I was and she asked what church I went to. Would you believe we go to the same church?!?! Ok, I was sold at that point! She serves on the medical staff at church. I didn’t even know there was a medical staff! She encouraged me to take the Spiritual Growth class (which I’ve been putting off for years) and also the customer service class so that I can join the medical staff too. Perhaps I will.

I’m telling you… God is constantly working behind the scenes to line things up just right! I don’t know the whole picture to the puzzle, but I’m pretty sure the pieces are falling into place as God planned. Nothing is by chance!

I’m extremely excited to start working. I’ve been telling everyone that I’m staying there until I retire.

OMG! I forgot to write about the most important things of the weekend.

Saturday was my brother’s High School graduation, so we all had to trek to Massachusetts on Friday night. This ultimately caused me to miss seeing Sex and the City on Friday night. The graduation was cool. You know how those things are. Nothing too crazy. My camera was not functioning properly, so I didn’t get too many great shots. That means time to upgrade! lol. I still can’t believe he’s done with High School. I feel like he’s aging so fast and I’m staying the same. Almost like he’s catching up to me.

So, Saturday night after coming back from Massachusetts I went to see Sex and the City… FINALLY! I absolutely love love loved it! I won’t give details just so that I don’t spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it, but it had a few twists that I wasn’t expecting. I thought the movie would have been more or less predictable, but they definitely spiced it up. It’s definitely worth seeing and also buying the DVD when it comes out.

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